The Right Prayer

It been a while I blogged and coming up are few posts that have been sitting in the drafts…

I’m starting with the one that changed me a little recently.

It was a few weeks back and I fell very very sick !!!! not on the lines of ‘not able to get out of bed’ but I caught some tropical rash for which I cannot take any medication because of the little one inside me.

It was the most painful 3 weeks of my life. I have never suffered so much and the pain and burning sensation was just too much for me to take. I did what I normally do when I’m in pain. I asked GOD to remove the pain and I assumed like every other time this time too, the pain is just going to go away when I wake up in the morning and so will the rash. But to my surprise it did not go away. I kept praying. crying asking GOD to just give me a pain free experience as it was just getting too much for me to take it. So much that I went to hospital at 3 in the night, but nothing was helping. Doctors said they were helpless as any medication can be harmful for the baby and they just asked me to live with it !!!! (Indian Doctors I tell you !!! ).

I have always prayed with faith and so were my prayers answered…but only this time.. why !!! ?? I kept wondering.. but i did not lose my faith throughout .. I was only looking for reasons of what and why is GOD asking me to go through this.. what is the lesson in it for me… but I still dint  get any answers…..but still there was no relief at all..

In the second week while this suffering was on .. I was reading a book written by  Zac Poonen about facts in Bible. That’s where I read… “There is a reason why GOD gives you pain..it is a way of telling you that something is not right and needs attention” He meant this in a very generic term and I kept meditating this word in my prayer…and there it was the answer standing right in front of me..

GOD told me that I was very arrogant that all my prayers will be answered with the solution that I wanted…..I never really tried to find out or give a chance to GOD to do it his way…. he said that this time I need to ask for “strength” to withstand the pain and not to ask for it to go away.  I immediately asked GOD to give me strength to be able to bear the pain, with the same faith and guess what .. it worked !! The pain did not go away .. but I was able to bear it this time….There was the lesson I learned the hard way .. but it was worth it ..

The “Right” Prayer in any situation is to ask for “strength” to go through the situation but not to erase it or solve it.

So this is what happened exactly…

There was this group who just celebrated Milad Unnabi and who forgot to remove these decorations. Yesterday was Hanuman Jayanti and some folks wanted to celebrate it just like we celebrate any other festival, decorate all the roads like they belong to you and then later leave them like a mess after the festival and don’t care a damn about it.

Now they had to remove the previous decorations to add theirs and thats where a group of 2-3 people had an argument about which led to riots in more than 20 areas in the city of Hyderabad.

I don’t even have any words to say…Why do we do this to ourselves and to our surroundings?

GOD show them a way to understand you better, that you are more than decorations, proclamations of who owns which place, who is the superior. Its love all that matters at the end of the day…

Ever heard the verse “Love your neighbor as yourself”? I’m more than sure this is preached everywhere.

Let there be peace….

This is usually every girls biggest day and so was mine. I was little nervous.

It was around 6 in the evening and it was a little cold…considering that it was summer back then it was very strange…

We parked the vehicle. There was a guy, who was sitting outside and was selling  these very beautiful Aurel Flowers. We picked two bag full of them and then walked towards the gate(as the gate was onto the main road we had to park the vehicle a little away).

And while I was walking and thinking how it’d be to meet them.. there was this chill shiver through my legs and it was a little hard for me to walk…I never was in this situation before and its my in-laws……..I stopped ……..for a minute and and looked at him(who is now my husband)…he said “Don’t worry…I’m with you…” and saying that he held my hand…..we opened the gate and started walking inside…

There were not many people around…a couple of workers cleaning the place, picking up the leaves that are falling off from the trees and clearing the walk way….and they stare at you intensely wondering where you will stop……and then …..we did stop when we reached the right place….

There I was holding his hand and standing in the middle of the Cemetery, nervous, tensed and bereaved. I cannot forget that feeling and will never forget that first visit..and yes both my father-in-law and mother-in-law are in the same grave next to each other. We got the surface cleaned and arranged the flowers and spent some time in silence.

May their mighty souls rest in peace…Amen

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Well, for the ones who did not know (which might not be a lot of you) I got married on Dec 4th 2009.

And then a new journey.. wait..why do they say new journey?? For some reason I feel it was normal untill that “A Day” that am gonna write about. It was exactly then that I felt that I’m Married.

It goes like this…

• 6:00 AM : In Bed. Alarm went on.
• 6:01 AM : Got out of bed into the kitchen straight.
• 6:10 AM : Coffee is ready for Hubby.
• 6:11 AM : Back to the bedroom. Woke up hubby. Gave him Coffee and back to the kitchen
• 6:20 AM : Hot water ready for a shower. Done with washing utensils. Done making break fast for Hubby (just oats but still counts)
• 6:45 AM : Out of the shower. Got dressed. Waiting for the Cab.
• 6:55 AM : Good bye to Hubby. In the Cab.
• 7:30 AM : At office.
• 5:00 PM : Stepped out of office.
• 6:00 PM : Reached home. Hello Hubby.
• 6:20 PM : Relaxation time.
• 7:00 PM : Swept the house.  Washed clothes in the machine (to guide your imagination).
• 7:15 PM : Visited parents with Hubby.  Had fun.
• 8:00 PM : Back home. (5 min drive)
• 9:00 PM : Made Chicken (for hubby, hez a pure non-vegeterian), Rotis and Beans curry(for me am a pure veggie).
• 10:00 PM : Washed the unclean vessels.
• 10:30 PM : Back to bed. Zzzzzzzzzzzzz……….

and there it was ….a very perfectly normal and mechanical day as it might sound for anyone who is married but it was the one day that made me feel that am married.

Sometimes it is very important to enjoy even the smallest things we do in life, does make our life very cheerful.

Adios

Google like always – super cool

I know a lot of people told me this when I was helping them out with their weddings, but something thats hitting me now that no one except me knows it the best on where and how to get things done for a wedding. Yeah you will see all that at my wedding

Anyways.. I was like always Google-ing on where to start and finding resources a few months back, sad that there aint a lot of help there, I mean specific to Indian weddings. So I thot I will come up with one.

I’m documenting everything that is being planned and will publish a planner(in a week).

Thanks Suhel for sending this across