The Right Prayer

It been a while I blogged and coming up are few posts that have been sitting in the drafts…

I’m starting with the one that changed me a little recently.

It was a few weeks back and I fell very very sick !!!! not on the lines of ‘not able to get out of bed’ but I caught some tropical rash for which I cannot take any medication because of the little one inside me.

It was the most painful 3 weeks of my life. I have never suffered so much and the pain and burning sensation was just too much for me to take. I did what I normally do when I’m in pain. I asked GOD to remove the pain and I assumed like every other time this time too, the pain is just going to go away when I wake up in the morning and so will the rash. But to my surprise it did not go away. I kept praying. crying asking GOD to just give me a pain free experience as it was just getting too much for me to take it. So much that I went to hospital at 3 in the night, but nothing was helping. Doctors said they were helpless as any medication can be harmful for the baby and they just asked me to live with it !!!! (Indian Doctors I tell you !!! ).

I have always prayed with faith and so were my prayers answered…but only this time.. why !!! ?? I kept wondering.. but i did not lose my faith throughout .. I was only looking for reasons of what and why is GOD asking me to go through this.. what is the lesson in it for me… but I still dint  get any answers…..but still there was no relief at all..

In the second week while this suffering was on .. I was reading a book written by  Zac Poonen about facts in Bible. That’s where I read… “There is a reason why GOD gives you pain..it is a way of telling you that something is not right and needs attention” He meant this in a very generic term and I kept meditating this word in my prayer…and there it was the answer standing right in front of me..

GOD told me that I was very arrogant that all my prayers will be answered with the solution that I wanted…..I never really tried to find out or give a chance to GOD to do it his way…. he said that this time I need to ask for “strength” to withstand the pain and not to ask for it to go away.  I immediately asked GOD to give me strength to be able to bear the pain, with the same faith and guess what .. it worked !! The pain did not go away .. but I was able to bear it this time….There was the lesson I learned the hard way .. but it was worth it ..

The “Right” Prayer in any situation is to ask for “strength” to go through the situation but not to erase it or solve it.

Well, for the ones who did not know (which might not be a lot of you) I got married on Dec 4th 2009.

And then a new journey.. wait..why do they say new journey?? For some reason I feel it was normal untill that “A Day” that am gonna write about. It was exactly then that I felt that I’m Married.

It goes like this…

• 6:00 AM : In Bed. Alarm went on.
• 6:01 AM : Got out of bed into the kitchen straight.
• 6:10 AM : Coffee is ready for Hubby.
• 6:11 AM : Back to the bedroom. Woke up hubby. Gave him Coffee and back to the kitchen
• 6:20 AM : Hot water ready for a shower. Done with washing utensils. Done making break fast for Hubby (just oats but still counts)
• 6:45 AM : Out of the shower. Got dressed. Waiting for the Cab.
• 6:55 AM : Good bye to Hubby. In the Cab.
• 7:30 AM : At office.
• 5:00 PM : Stepped out of office.
• 6:00 PM : Reached home. Hello Hubby.
• 6:20 PM : Relaxation time.
• 7:00 PM : Swept the house.  Washed clothes in the machine (to guide your imagination).
• 7:15 PM : Visited parents with Hubby.  Had fun.
• 8:00 PM : Back home. (5 min drive)
• 9:00 PM : Made Chicken (for hubby, hez a pure non-vegeterian), Rotis and Beans curry(for me am a pure veggie).
• 10:00 PM : Washed the unclean vessels.
• 10:30 PM : Back to bed. Zzzzzzzzzzzzz……….

and there it was ….a very perfectly normal and mechanical day as it might sound for anyone who is married but it was the one day that made me feel that am married.

Sometimes it is very important to enjoy even the smallest things we do in life, does make our life very cheerful.

Adios

I know a lot of people told me this when I was helping them out with their weddings, but something thats hitting me now that no one except me knows it the best on where and how to get things done for a wedding. Yeah you will see all that at my wedding

Anyways.. I was like always Google-ing on where to start and finding resources a few months back, sad that there aint a lot of help there, I mean specific to Indian weddings. So I thot I will come up with one.

I’m documenting everything that is being planned and will publish a planner(in a week).

woh badal kya hain jho garajthe nahin

woh wada kya hain jho nibha nahin sakthe

woh pyaar kya hain jho dikha nahin sakthe

I promised a post today but ohh damn all the shopping I had to do ..

Ohh btw.. the wedding shopping officially started today and the feeling is “ecstasy”

Pending posts in my Drafts

• A visit to the “To be” In-laws
• My first Audition
• India Version of Moment of Truth – How much can we face it ?

I promise myself (and also Vivee) I will finish my posts as planned on tym

Ciao…off to dremas.

For the ones who bugged me to death to write this post…..

a list of things on my “have to shop for” list….

• Personal dairy with glitter pens, a really cool , funky, girly with flowers and all that
• Fast track watch , anything funky will do
• Sourav Ganguly’s poster, high resolution. I tried looking for it every where, they all are taken
• White bag/purse…Err wait .. I got that one .. and totally love it Thanks
• Nail polish [only branded and no pink and red please] – Any day thats the perfect gift for me!!
• A Wallet, uff am dying for this one, people who promised me to get this one knows what kind am looking for so will leave this one to them
• A huuuuuggggggeeeeeeeeeeee Stuffed toy, actually mt brother promised me to get me this one.

am anyways going to end up buying them if I will not get one.. so don’t bother

Sometimes life gets to uncertain and painful, I only wonder if the counter will ever be open and If I will ever get to be with my friend, afterall you only have one lifetime.

the feeling that am precious the only feeling that kept me going ..

I’m in process of getting the feeling back !!!

I really don’t know how to..

but to start of a “tattoo” will do

I’m on my way to get a tattoo done !!! 

A lil nervous.. but excited too

I always strongly believed that people come into your life for a reason and are precious and should not exit no matter what. Suprisingly all of them whom I loved, I never parted ways with them, I figured out a way to keep them if not at the same level of “closeness”. 

But as time passed by I realised the importance of letting people go and letting them go for Good. And I did. 

I undid three people in the last two weeks outta ma Facebook, Orkut and where not. Sad thing is not yet from my life, thats due. Let’s see if they work it out for their good !!!